What time is it? 4:57pm
What are you doing? just got in from work, now gonna pack and head to Hamilton hooray the weekend finally came!
What do you want most in the world today? I would like a Fraturday, a day between Friday and Saturday, and I would spend it as follows: sleep until noon, eat and read a book until 2pm, play with cats and text my friends and just lay around in grass and on the hardwood floors at my moms until 5pm, eat a small dinner like a tuna sandwich, meet my imaginary girlfriend who will exist for one day only and we can kiss and cuddle and she can tell me stories while I drink iced capps then she can go home at like 9pm, then I would do laundry and clean and pack and stuff at a leisurely pace. Doesn’t that sound like a great day? Ok let’s make it happen, universe.
What has happened recently that made you happy? Well today at work was insaaaane but I handled it super well because I am everything that is great and everyone was like “oh wow she is so great at everything” and so I was very proud and I felt like an adult.
What has happened recently that made you sad? I still haven’t handed in my philosophy essay which would be ok if I handed it in tonight buuut I have a feeling I’m going to pass out on the couch instead so hopefully I can find the energy to get that done, even if it’s shit and gets like a 40%, that would still add 10% to my final grade so I think it’s worth it to embarrass myself.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Last night I had a dream and in it, I was so sure it was a dream but everyone was like “gurl you cray” and this used to happen ALL THE TIME and it was hilaarious how far my brain would go to convince me I was awake. It was fucking unreal, like no one believes me when I tell them. And yeah last night the other receptionist Chantel was Jim Parsons and Jim was like “I’ll prove it to you, I had Pjnti for lunch. You don’t even know what that is right? So you must be awake” and I was like yeah but Jim you have that every day for lunch, I’m getting used to it I think. And he’s like “omg you’re ridic just accept that you’re awake you’re being weird” and so eventually I did accept it and then I woke up like FUCK foiled again~
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … the “gang” is going up to a cottage somewhere and I am very excited to lounge around and drink in reasonable attire.
What time is it? 1:12pm
What are you doing? I am super failing at doing these every day. Like, not even close. The last five days or so have been really hectic though, but I’m hoping things will calmish down now. I just finished studying psych and now I’m getting ready and I’m going down to St Catharines to my sister’s birthday BBQ.
What do you want most in the world today? time lol
Last thing you ate? toast with pb&b
What has happened recently that made you happy? Even though I could have really (really, really, really) used the time yesterday and last night, I’m glad I went out. My friends mean a lot to me, and just being around them really helps my mood and makes me feel like I’m doing this for a reason: to one day have a life.
What has happened recently that made you sad? It’s been pretty bad the last week or so. I feel really, really weak and horrible. There’s a lot I have to think over and I can’t even tell you how much I wish therapy was starting this week. I really can’t handle this.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Well Anna was thinking about learning to drive soonishly and if she can be successful in that and be a decent driver then she and I might go Saskatchewan in August because timewise and compatibilitywise I think that would work out the best. There are a couple of other people who have expressed interest but there’s always something hanging me up about it, whether it’s a time constraint due to work or the fact that 24/7 together might not be the best idea. So hopefully Anna can show up to this endeavor and we can rock Canada, math style.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … is my first day alone at work.
What time is it? 2:14pm
What are you doing? studying psychology and sitting with parents, eavesdropping.
What do you want most in the world today? a working wrist ty
Last thing you ate? popcorn
What has happened recently that made you happy? decided to go out last night for a bit, was a little unsure if it would cause problems with my French test that was due at midnight, but it all worked out because I had fun and got home in plenty of time to finish watching the lectures and take the test.
What has happened recently that made you sad? I feel like I am causing someone quite special some emotional harm and I really wish I knew what to do about it. Unfortunately I am a bit hollow in the chest area lately.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Even though my room is windowless and I went to bed around 1am, totally passed out, I woke up naturally around 9:30am and got up and went outside to do some work. Very proud of myself.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … is mother’s day and I think I might be running some errands and then we are going to marathon the rest of the Amazing Race that we need to watch.
What time is it? 12:08am
What are you doing? just finished helping Rick study, now going to read myself to sleep.
What do you want most in the world today? I wish there was a whole day where I could just curl up and watch movies with someone and have it be really cute and I could boop their nose because I miss doing that.
Last thing you ate? crackers + pb + apple slices
What has happened recently that made you happy? I played more Uncharted 3 and Rick laughed at me but I finally got past the part I was stuck on and dear lord I suck, it’s going to take forever to beat it but I like figuring it out on my own even if it means taking a million times longer than it should. Oh also I went to Starbucks finally and the frappuccino was just as delicious as I remember it and I dressed up to go and it was beautiful out, like 20 degrees, and it was such a nice walk.
What has happened recently that made you sad? Just realizing how long it’s going to be before I’m out with a place of my own. I mean, I can hope for September but that’s pretty optimistic. Might be closer to November, idk. And all that goes out the window if I can’t get work right away.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? WELL I woke up around 7 this morning…wait there’s more…because the thunder shook my bed so badly that I thought the world was ending. But to be fair, we had just watched the series finale of Smallville before bed and I guess I was so tired that I got confused and thought that the apocalypse was actually coming some time soon because the noises were SO unbelievably loud that I honestly thought I was going to die for several minutes and I didn’t know what to do but I couldn’t get up and then eventually I figured out that it was just WEATHER and so I went back to sleep. But it was very frightening and it made me feel like an idiot.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … after school I’m driving into Hamilton and then I’m going to some kind of violence-fest where people punch and grab things and then other people are either like “k gj” or “lol no” based off some system that I don’t quite understand. But there will be nice people and it’s nice to go out and be exposed to weird things and such so I’m quite looking forward to it.
What time is it? 12:24pm
What are you doing? just had a bit of lunch, going to start getting down to studying/cleaning
What do you want most in the world today? more/better clothes
Last thing you ate? pb&b on crackers
What has happened recently that made you happy? You know when something is so good that you’re like, wow, this is going to super suck when it’s over… Future Me is going to be super jealous. ? Because that is essentially what is going on here. ALSO my computer decided that it missed me and so it’s going to cooperate and play DVDs today.
What has happened recently that made you sad? I forgot to stop at the store when I was out because I was too busy thinking and so I’m gonna just wait until Rick wakes up to see if he wants anything and so I had to have smooth peanut butter for lunch, wah #firstworldproblems
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? I surprise myself. A lot.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I might be able to go to my first class without too much problem considering how ridiculously early I’ll be ready for bed tonight.
What time is it? 10:05pm
What are you doing? idk I think I might drive into Hamilton but I’m just checking the weather and digesting my food because I tried moving around and got all crampy for some reason. Too many vegetables? :S
What do you want most in the world today? I don’t know, leave me alone I’m in a terrible mood.
Last thing you ate? dinner. stir fry.
What has happened recently that made you happy? During dinner we watched Smallville and it was another Ultraman episode and just asfjkdlhk if Tom Welling wasn’t already gorgeous enough, when he plays a bad guy I am so all over that omg his smirk I CANNOT
What has happened recently that made you sad? This is a direct message to Niamh, yes I am very very very very very hyper aware that I owe you an email 24 hours ago and trust me I have reasons and I couldn’t feel worse about it, don’t worry.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? I couldn’t nap but I did lie there in semi-unconsciousness listening to music (and crying for some reason?) so that helped a bit but it was a confusing experience
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I have to get up really early so if I’m going to drive home I should probably get on that
What time is it? 4:24pm
What are you doing? hanging out with my mom. Should be studying actually. Oh.
What do you want most in the world today? lololol let’s not go there.
Last thing you ate? sausage rolls!!! :o
What has happened recently that made you happy? apparently we’re having McDonalds for dinner because my mom doesn’t want to go out for dinner because she wants a “lazy day” so HOORAY that’s two things off the list so far.
What has happened recently that made you sad? gah all the things. I am such a mess atm.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? plans for tomorrow cancelled. It’s for the best (sick, midterm on Monday, etc) but it’s not exactly helping with the sad.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I have to learn a bunch bunch bunch bunch of Coding theory. Second time’s the charm right?
What time is it? 2:43pm
What are you doing? packing
What do you want most in the world today? not to be sick
Last thing you ate? cookie at lunch
What has happened recently that made you happy? another day of Rick being totally normal with this “being friends” thing. Just kind of waiting for the explosion. I have a bad feeling like he’s just trying to teach me a lesson or something and one of these days when he realizes it isn’t working he’s going to freak out and things will go right back. But nothing so far. He’s being normal and I’m the one freaking out.
What has happened recently that made you sad? went to bed sick, figured I had just overworked myself and that I would wake up fine but I woke up sicker and yeah, sort of fucked up my assignment plan too.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Matt’s friend that ran into us on Wednesday saw us again and came and sat with us at lunch and I was like “oh ok” but then we were talking about superheroes and Wonder Woman and Matt was saying how her lasso makes you tell the truth and we didn’t know that and Rick was like “Of course that’s the power that a woman superhero would have” and I opened my mouth to be like “I WAS JUST GONNA SAY THAT!” but then the girl was like “Hey! What’s that supposed to mean??” and then it was really awkward and I wanted to say “Ohh. You’re one of *those*” but decided I shouldn’t. So idk if she’s going to sit with us every day but so far she is kind of annoying and ruins “guy time” where we talk about Stargate and Smallville and hot women and stuff and she’s gonna ruin it with her girliness. Boo.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … it’s my mom’s birthday <3 So we’re going to spend lots of time together and I’m very excited for her to be happy and not stressed because she is actually a pretty cool person and friend. Just a bit mom-ish. And fail. But I’m fail too, that’s where I get it from. So it works pretty well.
What time is it? 10:05pm
What are you doing? cryptography assignment
What do you want most in the world today? cuddles
Last thing you ate? popcorn
What has happened recently that made you happy? No fighting today, “just friends” going alright in that sense
What has happened recently that made you sad? Just standing next to him and not touching him and he doesn’t touch me and everything is backwards and I have no one to touch and it is awful because he smells good and used to let me touch his penis but now nothing. And it’s what I want but I am so used to have someone there to be affectionate with and now I just don’t all of a sudden and it’s hard and I know I am complaining way too much but I don’t care because you don’t have to read this so shut up. Just shut up. Because I need to touch people and feel warmth and I know that now. And so unless you are willing to come up here and cuddle me to sleep then just take it.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? I went for a nap at ~8pm last night and woke up at 11 to take my pill and I was so tired I just laid down again for a second and fell asleep and woke up at ~8am and texted a bit and fell in and out of sleep before getting up at like noon. What.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … after school I’m driving into Hamilton (I think avec Rick, although he was originally going to stay up but then decided to come home for my mom’s birthday but now I’m not sure where we stand with that because we’ve since broken up and so idk what is happening). Then seeing people punch people and listen to other people make comments that I don’t understand about the punches and people who are punching. … violence~
What time is it? 9:23pm
What are you doing? have to finish a French thing due at midnight. Also if I hand it in tomorrow I only get docked 5% and it will most likely be much much better quality. Hmm…
What do you want most in the world today? a hug. or snuggles. something comparable to those things.
Last thing you ate? bacon and eggs for dinner
What has happened recently that made you happy? hm. Not been the happiest of days actually. I can’t think of anything. There were a lot of things that could have gone wrong that didn’t. So there’s that?
What has happened recently that made you
sad mad? wru Kaylee omg how are you possibly this flakey? How is it physically possible?
What did you accomplish today? made it to class to hand in shit. Stayed awake. Did ~some french but..but bed. Look at it. Ugh. Bed *swoon*
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … Rick and I are going on a date apparently. Dinner and then going to see The Woman In Black. Yay? Happy to go out but the dinner sounds a bit too romantic, don’t know that I’m that into it tbh.