In spcom today we had to write two speech topics down on slips of paper and then we put them in a big envelope and shook them up and then everyone pulled two out and chose one to talk about.
I did “How To Prepare For a Vacation” because the other one that I pulled out just said “narwhale”.
Who…who did that, I would really like to know if that was a troll or…?
What time is it? 6:33pm
What are you doing? was trying to do my crypto but I was interrupted by Rick and screaming and crying soon followed and now I’m just trying to calm down so I can do work but I’m so upset I just had to make some words so here I am I guess.
What do you want most in the world today? I just wish I had my own place.
Last thing you ate? popcorn
What has happened recently that made you happy? text from someone special made me stop crying mostly so I am very thankful for that.
What has happened recently that made you sad? Just Rick being generally insane until I get so mad that I have to yell and tell him to tell his story or just leave etc and he’s like “Wow I’m so glad that I’m not with you anymore” and I don’t even know why I care but I’m just so self conscious about being crazy and stuff. And it’s not like I want to be with him (I don’t) but when someone tells you that they’re glad they’re not with you because you’re too crazy it makes you wonder if you’re too crazy to ever be in a functioning relationship or even friendship. And like…I’m finally happy now for the first time in a long time and I just feel like I’m going to ruin it by being so ridiculous and I know it’s stupid because I know it’s Rick who’s being crazy and not me but I just can’t help but wonder if it IS me. I don’t even want to publish this because people do read it and I can’t stand burdening all my friends with my bullshit but if I don’t publish this then I’ll forget this feeling and I don’t want to. Because I have a bad memory and I need to hold on to this hurt so I don’t ever forget what he’s put me through. And now I’m just crying hysterically again and ugh I wish so much that I didn’t care. People do tell me nice things but those people don’t know me as well as he does. No one does. The person who knows me best in the world is the one who dislikes me the most. And that’s such a horrible feeling, I can’t even express.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? On a lighter note I got an 80 on my speech I did on Monday. Pretty good for never having practiced and having wrote it <12 hours before presenting.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I have to finish up this crypto so hopefully I am done crying by then.
What time is it? 10:54pm
What are you doing? attempting to do coding assignment, stuck because I forget basic linear algebra. Going to do this then get off my butt and get my old textbook. And popcorn probably.
What do you want most in the world today? lol April
Last thing you ate? um. good question. Oh right A&W
What has happened recently that made you happy? I don’t know that I’m ready to talk about it yet but be assured that there has been happiness had.
What has happened recently that made you sad? Felt very unprepared going into my speech, very disappointed in myself for a half-baked idea.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Well the speech went amazingly and apparently I am hilarious when I have to be so who knew. See tomorrow’s vlog for details or call the number on your screen within the next 30 minutes.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I can sleep in hooray sleep
What time is it? 9:07pm
What are you doing? my mom is asking me a million tax questions. Going to work on speech soon.
What do you want most in the world today? I’m so anxious for the post-exam period to start, I just hope I can focus enough to finish this term off properly. My head is all jumbled.
Last thing you ate? stir fry which I made for my mother and I
What has happened recently that made you happy? Met someone very special last night and had a great time. It’s not often I can be 100% myself and have it received so well. It was fantastic.
What has happened recently that made you sad? Hmm. I feel sluggish today. Idk I’m fine really, nothing sad to report, sorry.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Everything last night. Just, everything.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … there is a possibility of a clothing-shopping trip with Cheryl/Alisa/Anna. I guess I should start thinking about if I need something in particular.
What time is it? 1:32am
What are you doing? going to bed now, before I get in trouble
What do you want most in the world today? honestly, I’m starving. But it’s that kind of late-night hungry where you know you shouldn’t eat so I will just ignore it and look forward to the cold pizza I will be having for breakfast.
Last thing you ate? warm pizza
What has happened recently that made you happy? stuff and things and someone’s face
What has happened recently that made you sad? Well I THOUGHT that Rick would pick a fight with me about something and I was all ready to defend myself with some bullshit story and then he just kind of took a deep breath and was like “You’re the WORST at Draw Something omg that was CLEARLY the Amazon!!” so apparently he realizes he has no say over my life booyah. So this was another happy one actually, so sue me.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Prof handed back the evaluations that I half-assed… I got 100%. Ho..How. How. One of them was literally just a summary. I think something important was on tv and she just assigned A’s at random idk I’m not complaining, it was worth a lot.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I have nothing to do. Hmmmmmm. I will try to do TWO coding questions. That is my new goal.
What time is it? 12:10am
What are you doing? still working out the kinks in my speech that I have to give tomorrow afternoon.
What do you want most in the world today? kisses and cuddles. And vagina. Cuddles first though.
Last thing you ate? KD
What has happened recently that made you happy? playing with babytu and picking him up and him not crying about it
What has happened recently that made you sad? On the drive up Rick said something about being gay as a joke and I said “Hey, I’m telling your uncle you said that” (because his uncle is gay) and then he said “Yeah! You’re never going to even see my uncle again in your life” and then I just started bawling because it’s true, and I love his family. Especially his sassy uncle who wants to be my best friend.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? So I picked up Rick from his parents’ and got on the highway to come back to Waterloo and as I’m merging he’s like “so I told my parents” !! And he didn’t even warn me because I came in to his house and said hi and talked to them and we all hugged goodbye and I THOUGHT his mom hugged me extra hard. And so apparently they were devastated and things but they were quite normal still towards me so that’s good. But his sisters weren’t there and so I guess they found out a couple hours ago when they got home from work. Awkward.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … night I’ll be changing my Facebook status to “single” for the first time in the history of me having Facebook. And then dating can commence…hooray!
What time is it? 8:25pm
What are you doing? just finished dinner, going to work on French with Rick
What do you want most in the world today? weekend omg
Last thing you ate? tacos for dinner
What has happened recently that made you happy? Broke out my DS earlier and accidentally got back into Pokemon White, agh. Fun though.
What has happened recently that made you sad? Well there was a whole drama with Rick ordering this package and we kept missing delivery and stuff and he gets so stressed and takes it out on me. I have to actually say “You do know that I have literally nothing to do with this, right?” because he just blames me for everything.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Drew offered to hit Rick with a bat. Looks like someone accidentally became my friend against his will. Told you I’d get them all.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I go to speechcomm but don’t have to give my speech for another week so I can just observe some more example ones yay