478 days in the life

• Anxiety: I has it
• Apartment: I don’t has it.
• There isn’t a lot available. But I have a couple places I need to call but calling gives me anxiety.
• Car: tis broken. A check-something light is on and it is grumpy when I try to start it (success rate ~50%)
• The gears are like hmm which gear do I feel like using today OK THIS ONE wait no THIS ONE and I’m like I feel like there should be some rhyme or reason behind these choices come on car
• Job: I also don’t has it.
• BUT I did get a call this morning from Tim Hortons and I have an interview on Thursday so hooray!
• School: I passed my midterm but not by a lot (56%)
• But the prof admits he fucked up the midterm and anything between a 53% - 72% we should consider a “B” level understanding of the material
• So there’s that
• Lectures end December 3 and my exam is Dec 12 so it’s all coming up fairly soon
• Relationship: I has it. So being in love is pretty great and makes days worth it and stuffs.
• I spend 80% of my time essentially living with Paul and his energy helps me a lot
• Family is ok
• Lumberjackguide is queued to complete today so y’all should check that out and watch a few vlogs
• I have 3 personal vlogs filmed that need to be edited as well as my Christmas video and road trip pictures need to go on facebook and here and also the pictures from Hallowe’en and also Paul and I are going to do DVD commentary for the road trip vlog DVD I’m making
• I’m currently reading Sammy’s House by Kristin Gore. Next I am rereading Flatland.
• Paul is meeting Silina on Thursday and potentially my father on Sunday

THAT’S IT that’s everything I can think of

What time is it? 11:56pm

What are you doing? copying/reviewing lecture notes, then will do a bit of packing/unpacking before reading in bed. Yeah, I know.

What do you want most in the world today? cuddles with my big bear <3

What has happened recently that made you happy? Did lots of stuffs around the house today and wore pjs and ate leftover Hallowe’en candy mmm

What has happened recently that made you sad? After the movies yesterday Paul came over for an hour or so because we were starved for cuddles like crazy people but he had to go home to sleep and it was really sad to let him go and I was also sad because I wasn’t stronger/less ridiculous.

What happened recently that you didn’t expect? I did decently well on my midterm. Is it safe to say that I will indeed be done my degree next month??????

Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I’m going to Paul’s and just yay

What time is it? 2:14pm

What are you doing? waiting for Paul to get dressed and then we are going out to get grilled cheese supplies.

What do you want most in the world today? To do the pumpkin carving today!! (HINT HINT PAUL IT’S A PRIORITY)

What has happened recently that made you happy? I had such a great day yesterday… got to spend time with a handful of my favourite people (park with famliytu + Paul), and then had a hike that was just so incredible… and then we cuddled a lot and watched the pilot of Suits which I enjoyed immensely.

What has happened recently that made you sad? I am le tired

What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Midterm is Wednesday… snuck up on me a bit but I feel decently pre-prepared. Will study more in the coming hours/days.

Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … is the Hallowe’en special of PLL!

Phew, just handed in my midterm assignment. Had a brutal midterm this morning and a test yesterday. Finally I can rel—op nope got another test tomorrow brb dying from school overload~

What time is it? 11:03pm

What are you doing? heading to bed now, with some C.S. Lewis readings for philosophy

What do you want most in the world today? someone to cuddle me and stroke my hair and say shh it’s ok your doing your best we all still love you anyway and you have cute taste in decorations

Last thing you ate? oh um. dinner was this casserole thing that Rick makes.

What has happened recently that made you happy? rocked the geo midterm today, allegedly, and I feel really really good now about that class because everything was feeling the same as last time and last time I failed but I remember taking a really similar midterm and not knowing the answers and I did today and so now there is finally proof that this time around is different.

What has happened recently that made you sad? I feel really lonely and pathetic.

What happened recently that you didn’t expect? The Kings didn’t sweep, crazy.

Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I will wake up and muster up strength to try to do impossible things, just like every day.

What time is it? 5:38pm

What are you doing? letting myself relax for once. Should start work on my assignments though but I’m all distracted and happy right now

What do you want most in the world today? pizza. cuddles. salty things. pop. maybe like a hot tub or pool or something idk. THINGS.

Last thing you ate? cheese and crackers

What has happened recently that made you happy? Rick and I sat down and had another very adult talk about moving on and he thanked me because he said I was right and that we weren’t in love any more and he’s excited to date and stuff and we talked about timelines and agreed to not do anything until we become facebook unofficial, and then we talked about procedure for bringing people around the apartment and stuff and it was so nice and we were so happy.

What has happened recently that made you sad? I like to think that I’m cool but I’m not, HOW DOES ONE BE COOL I need to know because of reasons. Also I didn’t get any pie because the line was long and I had a class in 20 minutes. No pie on pi day, what is this even.

What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Rick is an adult.

Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I have no classes so I will be being very productive and cleaning and if I can do enough and if it’s nice out I might treat myself to Starbucks because I said I would get to go if I got 60+ on my crypto midterm but I only got 54. BUT I did get 88 on coding and that is much higher than I expected so I think I sort of half deserve it. /rant

Please send out lots of good thoughts because I am very frightened.

See you on the other side!

What time is it? 8:48pm

What are you doing? Studying crypto

What do you want most in the world today? time!

Last thing you ate? popsicle

What has happened recently that made you happy? Was basically as productive as I had hoped, but the day is just too short. Hope I can stay up fairly late.

What has happened recently that made you sad? Don’t get me wrong, I have lots of great friends and I’m thankful but I feel like I lost one in particular and I really don’t think it’s just my imagination. I mean, whatever, things happen but it has just got me a little sad atm.

What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Had my first friendship fight with Rick. It was nice because if he was being a dick it wasn’t my problem so I didn’t get stressed. Just said grow up etc and he went away for a while and came back normal and we didn’t have to do a whole “who should apologize” thing because I didn’t care and I just wanted to discuss dinner schedules and it was a huge load off.

Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … night I have my last midterm.

What time is it? 11:30pm

What are you doing? Just finished watching Rise of the Planet of the Apes (finally) with Rick and now I’m going to read myself to sleep

What do you want most in the world today? food. omg fucking bananas man, I can’t wait to go grocery shopping tomorrow jesus

Last thing you ate? hm. popsicle? I didn’t so much “eat” it as slurp it and tried not to think of penises

What has happened recently that made you happy? killed the midterm tonight. If I don’t get AT LEAST 75 I’m calling shenanigans on the world. Hoping for 80+ though.

What has happened recently that made you sad? Sad? Hmm. I’m not very sad. My nose is starting to get really dry and red and flakey from blowing it constantly on like shitty napkins and stuff so that’s pretty annoying.

What happened recently that you didn’t expect? I FORGOT MY PANTS IN HAMILTON ARE YOU ACTUALLY KIDDING. Anna washed them for me and everything and I left them there. AGHH. And it’s starting to look like we’re not coming home this weekend but I’m thinking of maybe making a day trip down on Saturday for reasons so if I do then I will pick them up then. In the meantime I will be a ridiculous hobo or something with holey pants and layered leggings. Being a woman is a constant struggle.

Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I will spend my day off being more productive than life and I know I say things like that a lot but I said I would be productive this afternoon and I was and I even redid our calendar and things and I am quite excited for studying and cleaning and maybe I will find lots of lost treasures around my room/the apartment like chapstick and highlighters and panties and jeans and our laundry/mailbox key. Hopefully at least the key because it is super inconvenient without it. ALSO BANANAS.

What time is it? 4:24pm

What are you doing? hanging out with my mom. Should be studying actually. Oh.

What do you want most in the world today? lololol let’s not go there.

Last thing you ate? sausage rolls!!! :o

What has happened recently that made you happy? apparently we’re having McDonalds for dinner because my mom doesn’t want to go out for dinner because she wants a “lazy day” so HOORAY that’s two things off the list so far.

What has happened recently that made you sad? gah all the things. I am such a mess atm.

What happened recently that you didn’t expect? plans for tomorrow cancelled. It’s for the best (sick, midterm on Monday, etc) but it’s not exactly helping with the sad.

Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I have to learn a bunch bunch bunch bunch of Coding theory. Second time’s the charm right?