What time is it? 10:10pm
What are you doing? Cleaning and organizing/rearranging the apartment with Paul
What do you want most in the world today? I wish I wasn’t so fucked up
What has happened recently that made you happy? Had a day off of work today!
What has happened recently that made you sad? Today has been testing me. First the issue with my graduation, then issues with my dad, then issues with myself… ugh.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Not gradating Honours like I thought I guess. But meh. Who cares. Tbqh I don’t deserve “honours”
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I’m taking Rick to dinner for his birthday which was last week, since he took me out when it was my birthday.
Yeah. Yeah. That happened.
I checked into it, and it’s a really long and complicated story. The bottom line is that one simple fact somehow slipped through the cracks. Went unnoticed by myself, Rick, my mom, and my academic advisor…. the fact that I couldn’t take Calc 3 back in 2009.
The restrictions put on me back then are no longer in effect, which means I could take Calc 3 now, but that really isn’t an option for me at this point. I’m done.
The other option, and the option I’m going to take, is to apply for a different degree.
It would still be a Bachelor of Mathematics, but instead of the Honours Combinatorics & Optimization program that I was in, it would be for something called “Mathematical Studies”, and I could minor in C&O.
It’s sort of a step down, but at least I’m graduating. Hopefully.
Awaiting online confirmation is even more stressful now.
What time is it? 8:21pm
What are you doing? nothing… vlog-type stuff…. shut up what are you, my mother?
What do you want most in the world today? I was going to say “I wish that this class was over with” but I don’t even really need to take it that far. I just hope that this is really the last one. I hope I get 60+ and I can just graduate and everything will be dandy.
What has happened recently that made you happy? I finished my Holiday video from last year, if you’re not sick of hearing that. And I’m really excited about making this year’s. I’m glad I decided to do it, instead of sticking to my original plan of doing it every other year.
What has happened recently that made you sad? Paul and I had our first “real” fight, like not bickering or general upset-ness. And it was so painful. But what was weird was how different it was from my fights with Rick. I used to fantasize about breaking up with him and how much better my life would be and how sad he would be, and I got a sick pleasure from that. Or else I would just realize how shitty things are and that we’re clearly not going to have a happy life. Or I would feel like crap about myself. But with Paul I was just scared that I was going to lose him. What if we couldn’t get over it? What if he was starting to get annoyed with me, or the reality of my personality was starting to sink in… or I don’t know. I was mad at him and I was mad at me. And we cried and cuddled and talked through it and it was long and exhausting and worth it.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? Well I did my first day of training videos at Tim Hortons and man was it weird. I’ll make a post about it after my second day and explain it and hopefully with pictures (mostly for Brian).
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … if there’s time, Paul and I might put up the Christmas tree!!!1!1!
What time is it? 11:56pm
What are you doing? copying/reviewing lecture notes, then will do a bit of packing/unpacking before reading in bed. Yeah, I know.
What do you want most in the world today? cuddles with my big bear <3
What has happened recently that made you happy? Did lots of stuffs around the house today and wore pjs and ate leftover Hallowe’en candy mmm
What has happened recently that made you sad? After the movies yesterday Paul came over for an hour or so because we were starved for cuddles like crazy people but he had to go home to sleep and it was really sad to let him go and I was also sad because I wasn’t stronger/less ridiculous.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? I did decently well on my midterm. Is it safe to say that I will indeed be done my degree next month??????
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I’m going to Paul’s and just yay
What time is it? 9:13am
What are you doing? Just showered, getting ready while getting some stuff done.
What do you want most in the world today? I’m so happy. I can’t ask for a thing.
What has happened recently that made you happy? I just got up the courage to check my grades and…wow. I didn’t pass French (figured) but I passed the other four. To translate, what this means is that I DON’T have to take any other courses this term, just that one math course. If I do well enough (need to calculate all the things still) then I will graduate after this term. I was at risk of having too many fails if I failed two courses this term but I didn’t. I even got a B in Geometry. I feel like I could cry. And this course will actually (probably) be fun and interesting, I can’t believe it. AND apparently my intent to graduate form has been processed or something (maybe the failing grade triggered it in the system) so I was able to enroll in that class for the Fall. It’s officially all on. What is even.
What has happened recently that made you sad? Yesterday wasn’t as productive as I had hoped. Turned out mind over body didn’t work, I needed the rest. Unpacked hardly a thing. Will power fail.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? When we got home from the trip late Tuesday night, my mom was sleeping on the couch so that she’d catch me when I came in because she guessed, based on our progress, that we’d be home that night. (It was supposed to be a surprise). It was so sweet.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I really really need to unpack all the things because I have no things currently. Unsure where I will find clothes to put on right now.
What time is it? 1:27am, quick post then I’m going to bed
What are you doing? just scored a 70 on my psych test without doing nearly enough studying hollaa
What do you want most in the world today? someone to kiss
What has happened recently that made you happy? work is good. it is good indeed. so are my friends.
What has happened recently that made you sad? Finding out I wasn’t graduating definitely had the effect I was worried it would, I care way less about school now.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? I needed some alone~ time and so I put a “come back later” sign on my door because Rick needs me like every 4 minutes for something and I am not quite that fast and he did show up and he knocked anyway. I’m like. … wh..come back later. I don’t get it, that could not be more clear. Maybe if I put a sock on the door he’ll get the point.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … I’m going to get my passport photos done. I guess I should probably shower then so my hair will be nice in the morning. Ugh the shower is all the way over there and.. and bed. FINE. Shower it is.
What time is it? 3:37pm
What are you doing? not really much, there’s no requests and I’ve already completed more than half of my 3-day to do list so I’m just planning road trip stuff and whatnot. I’m thinking of going shopping today for a couple of things but I have accomplished next to nothing this week so far (not for lack of trying though) and idk if I should but. but I want certain stuff. :(
What do you want most in the world today? I didn’t eat lunch because I’m dumb and now I’m like HEY FOOD WHAT
What has happened recently that made you happy? I ran some prelim numbers because I was worried that with school next term and this road trip that I wasn’t going to have enough to move out and I was going to have to get a job and live at home for like 6 months after school ends and I was all sad and stuff but actually I should have like two months+ worth of rent/bills/pocket money, even after Christmas shopping. I’ll probably still get a job first and then an apartment rather than the other way around but I’m so excited
What has happened recently that made you sad? Boss 2 and hotlawyer were talking about how they have to go to at least one convocation per whatever and they were going to go to the math one in October and heckle me and hotlawyer said she would throw marshmallows at me and call my name and I was like haha ok but really crying inside because I didn’t have the heart to tell them I’m not graduating in October. They’ll figure it out.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? I was looking into Yellowstone National Park and damn that shit is cool, going to talk to Anna about going there on our trip, time-permitting.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … is my second-last day at job 1.
What time is it? 9:01am
What are you doing? Well, I’m at work, but 75% of my job is booking rooms in this database system, and it’s down all day today for maintenance so basically I am just printing requests and putting them in a pile and telling people “no” when they call. I’m pretty much working at 35% normal capacity today. I think I’ll do some philosophy readings…
What do you want most in the world today? Food! But I didn’t catch the right bus this morning that gets me here early enough to go to Tim Hortons on my way to work, and every time I try to go around this time on a Tue/Thu then the line is so long that I don’t get back until just before I have to leave for class anyway, so I end up being gone the whole morning, and as I am technically supposed to be here as receptionist or whatever for people who come in to the office, that’s not so good.
What has happened recently that made you happy? I forgot until Katie called to order stuff from me that my new office is having a staff BBQ tomorrow and they invited me so I can meet everyone! I’m kind of lamely excited because of the food and because Katie is my friend (as well as future boss, awks) and I never get to see friends up here except for Rick so I’m looking forward to it.
What has happened recently that made you sad? WELL I’m glad I waited until now to write about this, because yesterday and the night before were pretty bad, but I haven’t cried at all today and hopefully writing this won’t make me cry because I am at work, as I said. So Rick and I were going through the courses available in the winter term that he could take, and he was having trouble finding more math courses and so he asked what I took. I told him I’d make a list and he’s like ok brb then. So I’m going through my Excel spreadsheet (See, I was so organized!) and writing them all down. And I decided to number them, for some reason, and when I got closer and closer to the end I started to panic because it didn’t seem like there was going to be 26, and there wasn’t! There was only 25! And you need 26 to graduate! And this was supposed to be my last term! So I freaked out and I went through my transcript even and I got the same thing. So I had the biggest panic attack, I was dry heaving and it was just awful. So after a lot of freaking out and crying I put on my big girl panties and made a plan. Long story short, unless my graduation application miraculously goes through the system, I’ll be taking one course in the fall and not convocating until June 2013. 2013!! Ugh. Anyway, I’m waiting to tell my family (I already called my mom in tears) until my application is offically denied. WHAT A YEAR MAN.
What happened recently that you didn’t expect? I didn’t even cry writing that omg.
Finish this sentence: Tomorrow … will be so busy at work because I have to do all of today’s work, plus everyone tries to make last minute weekend bookings, plus I have to do week wrap-up stuff. But I will still go to the BBQ because fuck you, hamburgers.